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Love Deterrence ~ Koi no Yokushiryoku [piano]

Kimi ga Iru 􀀅キミがいる Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso 􀀅四月は君の嘘􀀋

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The mark of my return: Santa Claus no Sora (from Aria)

I was so wrong that people are destined to be with one another. People fundamentally born alone. There is always a tiny little loneliness in our heart. Thankfully, I can adapt to the big one of mine and exploit it. Yes, I am here once again. The stage always wait for me and unseen audience all around the world are in grief for me to return. I am sorry all of all who remember me.

The mark of my return!

I consider my sky is the same as Santa Claus in this beautiful piece. Truly, it is great to be back. After 9 months of hiatus, I am now certain that music, my blog, and my stage of performance here will never ever ceased to exist.

With my empty hand, without the acclaim of other considering me as a pianist, I still always contribute my little talent to the world, I will always come to you to dig up melodies that only you remember. From there, we can once again enlighten the music that has been forgotten by time. From there, you won’t be the only one hearing those melodies that you think only you have it.

Let the true beauty defeat popularity to dead.

“Minna, namae wo yonde, Vangakuz”

“なまえをよんで Vangakuz”

Seventh heaven (from Garden of sinners) by Yuki Kajiura/Kalafina

Ever since my hardest transcription was finished, I have always conflicted myself about my ability: my transcribed skill and my level of piano playing are not in sync. That is normal totally, I admit. Composers may not sing well. Singers may not compose a single song in their lifetime. Pianist may not compose themselves but only cover others’ compositions. I know my unbalance. That’s why I try to avoid compete with other, rather, I choose easy song with low tempo and relaxed melody.

I ask myself whether it’s a good thing to go on that path. Thinking back, I always know the answer but I decide to live in denial. Ever since I make my performances public, my attitude somehow has changed: from admiration to slight jealousy, from enjoyment to competition, from acceptance to rejection.

From admiration to slight jealousy: lot of YouTube pianists out there are better than me. I admire their skill, love them but also jealous their talent. Is it because of my or my fate that I could not reach to where they belong to?

From enjoyment to competition: many years ago, I was so happy each time somebody covers my favorite songs in piano but now, each time I listen to those, I carefully analyze in detail and have attempted to replay myself.

From acceptance to rejection: I have became pickier in selecting and rating music.

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Ever since when I accept request and public my video on YouTube, my perception has changed. I am contributing music to the world which means that I can no longer perceive music as years ago. I am no longer a normal audience. Music may not heal me anymore but rather I may hurt myself for it. Such a bittersweet pain.

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If some of you reading this post, enlighten me and tell me why so many artists are in hiatus (Utada Hiraku, Shunichi Miyamoto…) or even quite their careers??

This time, I will risk myself again: this is going to be one of my finest arrangement ever (along with Sakura Nagashi and Mischievous of Alice)

Seventh heaven (from Garden of sinners) by Yuki Kajiura/Kalafina

And I forgot to mention my latest cover “One Form of Love”

Request #8: Savege Sadness (from Chaos Rings)

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First of all, there is no excuse for my laziness in the last month. I was really lacked of motivation. Incomplete transcriptions have been stacked on one another without reaching a point of near perfection. Each time I speed up, I feel so void in what I was trying to do. Everything seems to stop completely.

The truth is I know my limited capability is hard to handle such a huge amount of request now. Each time I finish a sheet, each time my expectation for perfection goes up. However, my slow improvement couldn’t race with my expectation; hence, I felt so frustrated and irritating.

Time by time, more and more people will visit my blog and know about me. The increments of number (views, likes, subscribers, followers, etc.) somehow are not encouragement but rather, expectation. The more expectation I have from people, the more I feel unease.

I simple whisper to myself: I am not born to be a person bringing music to the masses. I cannot bear the popularity and huge expectation from audience.

“Turn blind and keep walking”, simply as that.

“Savage sadness”, a soundtrack from the game Chaos Rings, fully depicts my feeling now.

Coming next week.